Ambivalent Ambition and the Lair of the Flying Machines

That means I picked my friend up at the airport last night.

Other than the explanation for the title the rest of this post will have nothing to do with airports or with picking up friends at them.

I had another super laid back weekend. I'm beginning to question the wisdom of not partying myself stupid on the last few weekends since the temperatures this weekend make me likely to be a shut-in for sure.

I'm going to make a list of things I need to do before I start law school. Actually, there will be several lists including things I must do to prepare for school and a list of things I just want to do before I start splitting my days equally between work and class. The latter may include things like staying out all night on a work night or spending more time by the lake. So far here's my list:

1) Make lists of things to do before starting school.

Ambivalent Ambition and the School of Law

My ambitions became slightly less ambivalent last fall when I finally decided to start in any one of the many directions I consider taking my life. I applied to Law School, took the LSATs, all that. I received my acceptance letter on Tuesday and I'll start in August. Exciting times. It's a program uniquely suited to my experience and goals so it should be pretty good.
I heard a story on the radio last year about how people who make impulsive decisions are usually happier with their decisions than those you debate, and weight decisions to death in order to make the right one. I've been trying to apply this philosophy to my life a little more and going to school was one of those things. I'm not certain I want to be a lawyer but it's time to start moving in some direction.
Happiness is all the rage.
At some point I became the responsible, maybe a little boring, guy. I went out with co-workers last night and didn't really intend to be the sober one but found myself less drunk than anyone else and realizing I was going to need to start taking keys so I stopped drinking. Two hours and no beers later I was driving co-workers to hotels and buying them rooms for the night. I was called a "good guy" from the girl at work I'd rather have calling me an irresistible guy. "Good guy" is only slightly better than being called a "nice guy" or told, "I'm glad we're friends." The price I pay for stepping up and watching out for people.
Sometimes I worry I'm growing up too fast. There are certainly people more grown up than me at 27 and people alot less. I wonder if Law School will put the final nail in my young-adulthood coffin. I'll be 32 when I'm finished, that's probably pretty definitively adulthood.

Ambitious Boring Weekend

So I'm taking a cue from my buddy at Leftover Chinese and theming my post titles in a too-lazy-to-think-up-a-unique title fashion. Not that I'm implying he's lazy at anything, even his blog posts, but this does just seem easier. I'm going with all my posts as being Ambitious-this or Ambivalent-that. I'm also kicking around a them similar to his "Leftover Chinese does-this" fashion only a Harry Potter-esque Ambivalent Ambition and the blah blah blah. Don't mistake this for Harry Potter fan-boydom, it's just another easy way to title blog posts. Don't get me wrong I like the Harry [*]er just fine, just not enough to purposely theme a blog around him.

This weekend was probably the most laid back I've had in months. After attending a hockey game with my brother I met some people for drinks but cut it off at first bar time and not 4am bar time.

I awoke at a semi-respectable-for-a-Saturday 11:30 AM and began by tackling a sweeping and mopping of my living area that had been nagging me. Little did I know this would turn into a 5 hour cleaning festival and soon my apartment would be as clean as is actually possible considering I've still got stacks of books craving a shelf to put them on.

Saturday night I met aforementioned LC and hot-teacher Andy at a neighborhood haunt and again called an evening before getting too crazy. I awoke at 10:30 on Sunday with little to do since I'd done all my cleaning the day before. So I watched some James Bond movies, some football, worked out, did some reading and watched more television (read Battlestar Gallactica) with the usual crew.

After a highly active, though boring weekend I went to sleep at 11:00 on Sunday and awoke at 5:00 this morning feeling wonderful. I think quiet weekends are just what I need to keep my weeks from being unbearable.

I'm suddenly thinking this title thing won't work out since I luckily have plenty of emotional states besides ambition and ambivalence.

Update Schedule 2007

Just kidding, there isn't one. I probably haven't updated this blog in awhile, although I didn't check to see when and what I posted last.
2006... no comment.
2007... bring it, I will kick your ass so freaking hard.
My new apartment is finally starting to take shape, 6 months after I moved in. I now have places to put all my kitchen things, stuff to sit on and a bed to sleep on. Sleeping in a bed was one of the best things I've experienced in years.
Umm... I'm trying to work out more this year.
I'm also trying to read more, sleep more, eat healthier and meditate more.
Hmm, pretty generic.

Thats all.